So, I went out with Andrea today. On our way to Olive Garden, I get a call from Ivan. He asks me I was alone and I don’t know wat impulses me but I said yes. So he begins by asking me if there was anything going on between us. And I said no, that there wasn’t. He ten goes on telling me that he weaker Andrea it there was anything and according to him, she had said that we were kinda going out. I was, in my head, Wtf! And she motioned to him that it wasn’t true. Ivan went on to tell me that he her told her not to play with ne because I was a great person and so on. Later, once we get to the restraunt, I find out things that I am not going to much at all because I don’t even want to think of them. We went bowling we took pictures of me kissing her on the cheek. I took her home and as I said good-bye, I gave her a hug and I kissed her cheek. I don’t know what she made of that. I don’t know if she knows that I like her… but everyone ie asking her if we are going out. So if she doesn’t get it, then I don’t know. But what will happen if she does find out that I like her?
I cant stop thinking of Andrea. And when ever she is brought up. I just hve this big smile on my face. I don’t know how or why…but I like her. I js treated her nicely because she was new. But some how, she grew on me. We joke around that we love each other and that we fuck each other. I see that as just playing around. But the rest of the crew seriously think we are going out. I like her alot and from wat I have heard….I think she likes me too. And when she confessed to me that se might be pregnant….I went into total shock! If Victor were to find out, he is going to jump to.the conclusion that it is mine. But I have.never slept with her. But she suspects that she is and she is scared to find out if she is. Honestly, I do like her, and if she will have me…Ima he that little baby’s dad. Is this what love is? I truely don’t know. I can just see me telling my mom Nd friends, “My girlfriend is pregnant!” Hahaha that will be a true spectacle. And if she isn’t pregnant, then ill get her pregnant. Hahahaha!
Working at taco bell has been an amazing experience! I like working there better than at pollo loco. But the thing is that for some reason, my job is not good enough for my brother and sister in law. They say that I M not taking advantage of what I have. They say that because I’m the only one in the family that has “papers.” So because of that, i shouls have a better job than the one that i currently have. They aré just stupid ugh! But like i said ita been a great pleasure working there. And there is a very slight possibility that i might be terminated. When i was hired at taco bell, i was hired as a shift leader. And because of one stupid mistake, i did not pass my certification on my first try. And if i do not pass it the second time, I will be terminated. No pressure right?
Le agradesco al tiempo que me a demostrado que las cosas buenas llegan en cualquier momento.
-chino y nacho
This has been happening atleast once a week, and if not then it has happened for 3 nights straight! I have been having dreams about this one friend, welll, it’s not based on that one friend but he is always involved in da dream. I use to have dreams about this friend in high school but in high school it was because our friendship was awkward and only lasted one year. After that, we were just “acquaintances.” It’s not that it’s bugging me, well, actually it is! WTF is it happening now? I have been keeping my self busy, maybe not busy enough, to not even think about anyone from my Senior year, besides Ms. Zulma. Senior year was so weird and it just doesn’t make sense why that friend keeps being in my dreams. What I have learned from my parents about dreaming a person constantly is that there may be unfinished business or something is happening to the person. I just do not know what to think right now. All I want to think about is getting up and getting ready for school. I cannot believe that i woke up and started writing about that friend. i guess I miss that friend.
So I have come across two things that I “love” or rather need to be doing at this point in my life: work and school. Work at this point is kind of interfering with my school schedule. Joe, my manager needs me to work on Fridays so that I can take care of the order. But the problem is that I have school on Fridays. And like I said I need the job to pay my car which is majorly important at the moment. But I also too need my education to start off my career that I am really excited about. But now that goal is getting smaller as the days go by! So the only option that I have left is to drop my class this semester. I could make an agreement with my math teacher to not go on Fridays but to go the other 2 days of the week but for me that would not really work. Why? Because! Its math and I have a hard time with that subject and I need all the class time I can get. So as of right now that is my only choice…..
Well work is work! Can’t live without it and can’t live without. I kind of miss not working hahaha! But I know that I really need this job right now. I am just so tired of just working. Yeah there is still school but now its always just school and work, work and school! I don’t even have time to hang out anymore! Most days I get out at 5/6pm and I am way too tired to do anything else. And I know that there are people out there that are doing way more then I am doing now and that they have more right to complain than me. But still I am not use to this kind of life. And I wish that I was just a regular crew member but no! I had to ask for the shift lead position! I don’t know what I was thinking when I applied for that job! It all seems so much work now. How am I suppose to study for school, handle a full time job. And still study to be a shift lead? And I know that isn’t a lot to complain about but like I said I am not use to it. I am just not use to this kind of life. But my brother said, “Welcome to the American life!”. And like now that I am suppose to be sleeping so that I can wake up early to open tomorrow, I just can’t. I don’t know why but I just can’t! And it isn’t because I am not tired, but because I am but I just can’t seem to fall asleep. And that has never happened to me before. Can a person be too tired to be able to sleep? I really don’t think but anything is possible. The only that keeps me going at all is my paycheck that I will be getting with a few extra dollars every two weeks. Why is it that this world is always about money! Just this month I’m going to be using atleast $550. How in the world does a 19 year old guy have to use so much money when he doesn’t even have to pay rent? Why is life a fucken bitch!?! And I know, like I have said before, I can’t really be complaining because there are millions of others that have it way worse then me but I am not use to this kind of life. I just really want to throw in the towel. But I can’t I have to keep going! All there is left to do is to keep going!
“El Amor es una majia, una fantasia, es como un sueño” Well that’s how Tito el Bambino starts his song “El Amor.” I have never been in love beofre and almost all of my friends have been in love or are in love. I have always had major crushes: my first one was in grade school with a girl named Patricia. In middle school, Marlene and Melissa. Melissa was my biggest crush. And like always, I thought it was an impossible. Then in high school: there was Marleana and last but not least, Grecia. My friends, at least those that knew, couldn’t understand why I liked her and to be honest neither did i. she always “abused” of me. Although “abused” is a hard word, it kind of fits. But now, now i dont have a crush on anyone…but i am told my some friends that there is this girl that appears to like me. i didnt believe it because this girl and i have always known each other since we were kids. But the point is that know that i know that she might like me, i really dony know wat to do. i wanna go for it and give it a try but i just dont know…
